I frantically tried to save you. But just like with so many things in my life, I couldn’t do enough, I wasn’t enough, I was too late. I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry.

"But right now everything looks strange to me, as if I don’t belong here. It’s me that’s out of place. And the worst thing is that I feel there’s somewhere I do belong, but I just can’t find it."

FUCKINGHELL!!!!!!!!!!

Fucking hell!! I just wanna be happy for once please is that too much to ask for? I’ve tried my best to get it but it seems like this universe won’t let me have it. I just wanna be love by someone, be the cutest couple and treat like a princess just like my friends are. Is that too much? I thought everyone deserve to be happy? but why can’t I? I’ve sacrifice a lot for the people that I love and this is all i got? FUCKING PAIN.LONELINESS.BROKENHEARTED. Everyone gave up on me, leave me and used me. All I’ve ever wanted is someone that can actually make me happy and stay for a long time but I guess that’s too much to ask for. Is this karma? If ya fuck it! I know i have made my friends life miserable but I’m really sorry and i know i shouldn’t do that to you, I’m really sorry. I’ve no idea how to make it up to you. I’ve learn my lesson. I’m sorry.